Character Designer
CurrentIn 2019 I set out to become a game designer and would do anything to get back in the industry. I have a hp zbook mobile work station and a lot of trauma I’ve spent my entire adult life figuring out. I’ve learned that I’m non binary and got kicked out by my family. I spent a long time struggling over the nuances that my parents don’t love me. I worked in a coffee shop named white bison where I had an atrocious manager that left my store during Covid. There was a day where my manager (who knew I lived with my immunocompromised dad) tried to forced me to work when our whole store needed to be closed on the coffee side for Covid. It was me a 2 year experienced shiftlead with developing burnout and 2 fresh out the gate baristas, one suffering from the same condition I was to soon to erupt out come. I worked there for 3 weeks, impacted from immense guilt. My dad is the more supportive parent out of the 2 of my parents because he could rationalize that a relationship with their autistic furry child would be better than letting it crumble like his and my sisters. I’ve always wanted to make them proud, but I’ve become so broken in the process. I struggle with extreme anxiety and suicidal ideation because of it. I struggle with heat disassociations and it messes with my empathy issues. My most recent job was Walmart where I left because assets protections brought me immense and cruel guilt. We’ve been struggling. Living off chicken tenders, fish sticks and ensure shakes for cereal. I’ve had a life of depression and will literally make adult films to get the career I’ve always needed, but I would rather apply for a internship in full honesty. I’m going to kink munches, trying to make friends and struggling in Tennessee do to the political climate. I just want to make video games and feel euphoric. I’m learning how to use blender and making a skeleton based off my body and a bottle of Effexor to rig with my (altered) fursona.
