Your dinners, your clichés your stereotypes, I'll play the lion to your lambIt's more than exploitation, it's more like a morality playA picture of me is your king of vice​, give's life that certain somethingMy definition of retirement: a multiplication factor of a $million individually determined by desired lifestyle choices. Upon achieving one's stated factor, one no longer has to actually work to support one's individually determined lifestyle. That's the theory anyway.Of course there are lifestyle's and there is a life of style, one man's inner city paradise is another's concrete ghetto wasteland infested with Marxist, greenie​ scum, ie see Melbourne CBD​. I guess you have to live in a house 628 sq/m under roof to appreciate that size is a reward within itself​. As an aside for the uninformed or the simply​ stupid, my house is surrounded by trees. Yes trees, the only solution if you moronically​ believe that carbon dioxide is actually a pollutant. More, IF the seas are warming (see NASA study 6 Oct 2014, they are NOT) the reef will actually grow. It's just science.Alternatively, when one owns twenty eight {28) bedrooms and a forest including trees, a sense of contentment​ does pervade one's psyche. Is this is a reflection of my Slovenian Slavic heritage, or just wealth? Truly is Crown Lager preferable to Hahn Premium, who really knows what we're really all about, why we are here? Some questions are never to be answered such as, how did any rational individual's vote for Christine MILNE or the Greens? Actually, the answer to the last is none, being sufficient ex bloody​ commie, intellectually dysfunctional whack​ jobs to do the filthy deed: ie let's break down the borders as they will come with 1000's to drown whatever their intentions. I say vote Donald Trump, let god sort em out. I finish with, I am an only son of a single mum. She bore me, raised me and is now crippled. I care for her till death do us part, the circle of life now closed.

More recently a revered, ie an individual who somewhat shaped that which I now am my god bless you you know who you are, evidently viewed my profile at her leisure. I forgave her, as she also opened my eyes. Yes, my profile is likely forged as a response to the tempest of my past literally reaching out to my present which is pretty self-astounding. Regardless of being somewhat fearless I can find this phenomena, let us say at the least intimidating. Apparently some individuals have extremely long memories, my god forgive these misguided ladies. Most importantly, some pasts simply contain more memories period, which I would prefer forgotten please never doubt this fundamental in self preservation. Anyway, upon further considered reflection realistically who am I to deny anyone! In response I have evolved. Yes, as individuals we evolve or to some extent become simply less, being a philosophical observation. As a result of this epiphany, my new mantra is: SEEK and you shall find............. evidently myself now currently under my initial. My god bless you you lucky individuals, being a non-gender specific honorific. I would tell you about the things they put me throughThe pain I've been subjected toBut the lord himself would blushThe countless feasts laid at my feetForbidden fruits for me to eatBut I think your pulse would start to rushNow I'm not looking for absolution,Forgiveness for the things I doBut before you come to any conclusionsTry walking in my shoes.You'll stumble in my footstepsKeep the same appointments I keptIF you, try walking in my shoesMorality would frown uponDecency look down uponThe scapegoat fate's made of meBut I promise now, my judge and jurorsMy intentions couldn't have been purerMy case is easy to seeI'm not looking for a clearer consciencePeace of mind after what I've been throughAnd before we talk of any repentanceTry walking in my shoes.Or Not.

I've got nothing to say I haven't said beforeI've bled ALL I can l won't bleed no moreI don't need no one to understandWhy the blood runs cold in this hired handA career defined by 19/20 years being primarily solitary duty, including: 400 suspicious deaths investigated, ie murders, suicides, bad stuff you do get the drift; 13000+ general crime scenes examined; unknown 1000's of warrants served (3/85-3/87); finishing with 200 (fact) violent confrontations, ie fights, exercise, fun, whatever.In recognition of the above receiving in total 3 medals, 2 pins and 11 (paper) commendations/citations wow!Further, I was officially informed I was considered, "brave(?) to the point of having a total disregard for my own personal safety", evidently NOT being a desirable quality in modern policing, evidently? However, I possess NO bravery awards as IF it's in you they simply deny this inconvenient reality. I arrested unassisted with extreme prejudice multiple armed robber's on three (3) occasions just driving by, including: *two (2) actual attempts on my life, being a worry*three (3) gang assaults, though drawing gun evidently does beat gang*a lifetime of walking with a gimp going back to an iron bar attack in 1984. Okay, I lost *right shoulder reconstruction permanently on hold from another iron bar issue/drug dealer arrest gone wrong (1992). Actually drug dealer took out the two (2) younger, larger, GD cops first with one to be invalidated out for life. I eventually affected the arrest unassisted being a win, lifetime loss all rolled into one*slash wound in the back. Okay, The KevDrev never ran he tactically reassessed leading to slash wounds in the back *NO cartilage in knees, more tactical reassessing and 20 years as a highly successful striker. *ALL right hand digits broken at various times, I've always been persuasive with my right *arthritis EVERYWHERE*AND the ongoing pleasure of a lifetime of dreams that are not pleasant Beyond this I'm good.